Creativity

My mind seems to have been drifting quite often lately to the subject of creativity the last couple weeks. It might sound simple but if you were in my head you would realize just how broad and time consuming this subject actually was. The action of creativity is broad in itself and now i am complicating even the meaning! Seriously how do i manage to do this with everything?! Let me attempt to put into words the creativity of the this mess in my head that i have been fretting about. 

It started with my hair

and my clothes

my eyelashes

my makeup 

my airbrushing

very vain things yesss, but hey all great ideas gotta start somewhere! i started to stress with this ever-increasing list of vain to-do's and a decreasing amount of time to do it in. yes i am 20 and i feel like i have zero time for myself when i know that any mother would think this was absolutely hysterical. dont judge. in an attempt to de-stress i decided that creativity was exactly what i needed. how to be creative with my outfit, my hair, and overall appearance without a never ending time frame or bank account? 

and so my thoughts began to roll forward...

once my mind wrapped around the fact that creativity is a problem solver and was exactly what i needed i began to continue fretting. how do i manage in utah and be creative with my money? my time? my activities? and pretty importantly...my hobbies?

sheeeesh i never realized how expensive all of my hobbies are. there will be much more sacrifice to moving away than i anticipated.

but i just can not NOT create.

thanks mom.

she taught me this when i was too young to know any better.

never was there a time that she didnt have a project of some sort on the table or in the laundry room.

she put lip gloss in my hand when i was two,

scrapbooking supplies in my hand when i was five,

a piano in our home and enforced practice time,

gave me a crochet needle when i was ten,

canvases to decorate,

an endless supply of glitter and crystals,

and the encouragement that anything i made was beautiful.

Creating something beautiful has become an outlet for me.

It taught me to turn to my own talents for comfort and give a piece of myself.

the only time i have ever been unhappy with something that i have made was when it didnt look like ME.

so then it brought me to the thought...just what is creativity?

a quote i found from president uchtdorf soothed my fretting and panic by quite a bit today...

"The bounds of creativity extend far beyond the limits of a canvas or a sheet of paper and do not require a brush, a pen, or the keys of a piano. Creation means bringing into existence something that did not exist before—colorful gardens, harmonious homes, family memories, flowing laughter"

Finally my thoughts and my heart connected when i read this quote. how true. creativity is simply creating something that didnt exist before. something from YOU. 

and i came to the conclusion that...i can do that wherever I am.

I dont need a bunch of money, glitter, scrapbooking supplies.

i dont need to haul my piano up to provo, keep adding to my buckets of makeup.

I don't have to be the martha stewart of decorating, or the bakerella of cookies.

i have everything that i need and i will take it with me up there.

How SIMPLE this all seems now.

Creativity is, but much more, then the vain things of daily living.

The creativity that I want to develop every day from now until my forever is the kind that is much deeper and not so temporary.

The creativity of managing time where i prioritize the right things first,

creativity in words so that others always hear what i really mean,

creativity in thought so that i am constantly thinking of what more i can learn,

Designing a future that I will be proud of once it has become my past.

She designed a life she loved.