It started with my hair
and my clothes
very vain things yesss, but hey all great ideas gotta start somewhere! i started to stress with this ever-increasing list of vain to-do's and a decreasing amount of time to do it in. yes i am 20 and i feel like i have zero time for myself when i know that any mother would think this was absolutely hysterical. dont judge. in an attempt to de-stress i decided that creativity was exactly what i needed. how to be creative with my outfit, my hair, and overall appearance without a never ending time frame or bank account?
and so my thoughts began to roll forward...
once my mind wrapped around the fact that creativity is a problem solver and was exactly what i needed i began to continue fretting. how do i manage in utah and be creative with my money? my time? my activities? and pretty importantly...my hobbies?
sheeeesh i never realized how expensive all of my hobbies are. there will be much more sacrifice to moving away than i anticipated.
but i just can not NOT create.
she taught me this when i was too young to know any better.
never was there a time that she didnt have a project of some sort on the table or in the laundry room.
she put lip gloss in my hand when i was two,
scrapbooking supplies in my hand when i was five,
a piano in our home and enforced practice time,
gave me a crochet needle when i was ten,
canvases to decorate,
an endless supply of glitter and crystals,
and the encouragement that anything i made was beautiful.
Creating something beautiful has become an outlet for me.
It taught me to turn to my own talents for comfort and give a piece of myself.
the only time i have ever been unhappy with something that i have made was when it didnt look like ME.
so then it brought me to the thought...just what is creativity?
a quote i found from president uchtdorf soothed my fretting and panic by quite a bit today...
"The bounds of creativity extend far beyond the limits of a canvas or a sheet of paper and do not require a brush, a pen, or the keys of a piano. Creation means bringing into existence something that did not exist before—colorful gardens, harmonious homes, family memories, flowing laughter"
Finally my thoughts and my heart connected when i read this quote. how true. creativity is simply creating something that didnt exist before. something from YOU.
and i came to the conclusion that...i can do that wherever I am.
I dont need a bunch of money, glitter, scrapbooking supplies.
i dont need to haul my piano up to provo, keep adding to my buckets of makeup.
I don't have to be the martha stewart of decorating, or the bakerella of cookies.
i have everything that i need and i will take it with me up there.
How SIMPLE this all seems now.
Creativity is, but much more, then the vain things of daily living.
The creativity that I want to develop every day from now until my forever is the kind that is much deeper and not so temporary.
The creativity of managing time where i prioritize the right things first,
creativity in words so that others always hear what i really mean,
creativity in thought so that i am constantly thinking of what more i can learn,
Designing a future that I will be proud of once it has become my past.
She designed a life she loved.