Since this blog is all about me, and what I think, see, feel...blah blah blah

I am entitled to say something as petty as I HATE writing in pen!

Almost as much as I hate taking my B vitamins every morning.

Mom always told me never to say hate, but this is an exception people.

Anyways, the point being that I hate writing in pen and I also hate writing on a blank computer page.

My ideas have always flown so much better coming from a mechanical pencil 

and college ruled notebook paper.

That said, I have discovered that my blog will most likely come out more ME sounding

If i first 1.) Write them down in pencil, and then

2.) copy them on here 

So here I begin...

I believe that home is where my heart is.

There is a real reason why that is so cliche.

I miss the security of Arizona,

I most definitely miss coming home to chaos and the T.V. on and voices talking...

ANYTHING is better than coming home to absolute silence now, really.

I also miss my family and the fact that I can't hang out at home with them whenever I want.

I miss my old friends.

I have learned that it's true when people say you can't grow an old friend.

Too bad I have like zero time here.

All these things are true, but I very much love Utah.

It's not all that it's cracked up to be on some levels,

But I find it so much more fulfilling then I thought it would be.

Some days are hard, and not fun.

I'll be lonely and what not and probably a little bored

sooo..

I throw myself my little pity party (duh!)

And then I do what you gotta do...I get over it.

I try extra hard to find reasons to love my job.

I talk tons at church and other activities because I know how it feels to not know one person.

I go out of my way to introduce myself and remember their name.

I embrace the fact that everyone up here is an orphan too, just like me.

I'm not saying that this is where I will always be.

But, I am truly happy that I am here, right now.

I will never experience this kind of challenge at any other point in my life and I am embracing that.

For now,

I feel very peaceful here and I feel very safe.

I still cannot get used to the beauty.

Nothing compares to HOME, ever!

But it's moments like driving home from yogurtland tonight with a new girl friend who is tons like me

And she says, "Even you talking to me at church made everything so much better and I 

already loved it here."

...and I think so myself this is the best thing ever for me right now!

So glad I followed my heart up here

xoxo jess